Hey, It's Me. A Struggling Me, but I'm Here.

I know it has been awhile since we talked. So, let's catch up, shall we?

I started my senior year of undergrad in August, and I am super excited that I am about to complete yet another milestone in this lifetime. I can not wait to start my career. As the semester persistently continues, I learn more about my field and the area that I want to pursue. I want to work in human services, more so in the child welfare area. I have a passion for serving, helping, and being around children. On the downside of school reopening, Monday through Friday I take part in Zoom University. I am in front of a screen alllll dayyyy. I also, half the time, can't even keep up with what my professors are talking about, and I am tired of looking like "that" student who asks repetitive questions, just so it can be clear to me. Majority of my homework is writing assignments, however I miss interaction in the classroom and deep conversations we can't have via Zoom. I never thought I would miss being on-campus and being in a classroom setting so bad. I just hope next semester, we transition little by little back to classroom learning.

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I have been unemployed since March. I have been unemployed for 7 months 13 days and 18 hours and 21 minutes. (Okay I am exaggerating on the days, hours, and minutes) But I have basically been at home since the pandemic started. Even though the Maryland Department of LABOR has been helping me out, I know I can't be dependent on it for long. I want off of it soon because I really miss having a job sometimes. I have had a job since 15, but I now God has something bigger for me, so I will be waiting patiently. On the bright side, I have been applying to jobs based on my career and getting a few interviews.

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Me, as a whole? A little bent up. I am not taking this pandemic real well. I often feel confused and scared due to my own conspiracies and listening to other's opinions about daily world news and the spiritual world as well. From social injustice in our to the political campaign that is draining me this year is in a sh*thole. I just feel so angry to all the police brutality cases not getting justice and so much inequality I keep seeing everyday. I honestly just am so angry at how others are angry and are hurting. Justice will be served, and I just hope I am here to witness it. In my personal life, I am trying to overcome a few habits that I have. I am trying to conquer patience, being consistent, and changing my eating habits. All take handwork and dedication and I can't wait to get better at it.

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So yea, even though we are struggling together, we are pushing through! I know in a couple of years, we are gong to laugh this over ( I hope) and tell many stories to our children and grandchildren about this COVID Pandemic.